Kahani ek raat ki..

Yeh kahani ek raat ki h,
jab palkon k kaale asmaan tale
ek khwab adhura baitha tha...
kal toh ithla rha tha,
keh rha tha, hakkikat milne aayegi.
Apni shiddat par itraata tha woh,
jo aaj akela baitha tha...

Kuch sehma sa tha,
aas k tukde, jo bhikhre the zameen par,
ghur rha tha unko...
aur haule haule khud tukdon mein tut-ta ja rha tha
ek tukda hua ki hakkikat aati toh yeh hota
dusra tukda- ki hakkikat aati toh woh hota..
toh tutaa woh, ek aasihq jaise;
woh hota h naa,
k woh aati toh ye hota
k woh aati k woh hota.
bhikra woh..

phir barsa kuch paani jaisa,
uss khwabon k duniya k andar bhi,
aur bahar bhi.
beh gaya woh khwab aur purze uske,
susaan ho gayi khwabon ki duniya..

tabse koi bhi khwab ghabrata h,
mere khwabon ki duniya mein aane se
shayad... usne bhi suni h kahani uss raat ki
jab palkon k kaale asmaan tale,
ek khwab- adhura, akela baitha tha.

Realization.

Image via WikipediaIt sparkled, bright and beautiful,
A ray from above, blessed the drop of my grief,
Like a tiny diamond it shined over my face..
a sight so serene- to behold forever,  yet very brief.
I wouldn't have known such beauty, in my life,
if I hadn't lost- hadn't cried...

Fark sa padta h...

Jab koi baat bekaar ki,
uss par bankar aa jaati h.
jab befazul ki baaton par,
aise woh ro jaati h.
jab chehra uska kisi wajah se,
murjhaya sa lagta h.
fark sa padta h...

ussmein mujhmein kisi baat par,
anban jab ho jaati h.
kisi baat par meri uski,
baatein jab ruk jaati hain.
tab usko khone ka darr, mann mein,
halka halka sa badhta h.
fark sa padta h...

Dil ka har kuch keh dena usse,
kitna toh asaan sa tha.
uska ho jaane ka dil mein,
koi jab armaan na tha..
ab har lafz zubaan pe aakar k,
khamoshi mein badalta h.
woh kya sochegi iss baat se,
fark sa padta h...

Mujhko toh malum nhi...
par dil bole ki h sahi,
jyaada sochu, toh galat lage.
ab chain nhi mujhko kahin.
kya karun? ki saath bhi uska,
ab toh apne saaye jaisa lagta h.
jo ho naa woh saath mere toh,
fark sa padta h...

:)

Things Of Importance....

It’s been days I told Tejasvita, that I will write this.  I have seen her under stress for things I considered unimportant, mostly thing which come to both of us as duties… I guess it’s her quality to do everything she does efficiently, and when things jumble up; she’s in stress. Also, in spite of her many efforts to let go, stress come to her with bullshits from unimportant people.

‘Why it affects me?’ has a simple answer that she’s important.

Things of Importance…

First, jot down five most important things in your life; may be people or your ambitions… things from abstracts to materials, the five most important. Continue the read once done.

Below is a little story…

I guess I was in 7^th. We went to our village. Every evening, I with my father and uncle used to go on a stroll to our fields. It used be a good time out there, my father used to tell me the stories of his days; how during his summer vacations, he used to help my grandmother with the fields, while my grandfather used to be in different cities for work. Well, my father is the one calmest person I know, one with big heart, one who keeps little and distributes more. It all looks decorative as I write but he is the way he is.

While returning from the fields, we went to… ahmm that place we tie our cattle and keep equipment used in fields, we call it ‘gher’. There, my grandfather was having an argument with someone. It was a feud on some silly topic. The person in front was a much younger guy, very rude and abusive to the old man. My father and uncle entered the argument. The dumb guy, after a little while said some literally bad words to my grandfather and my dad slapped him real hard… He was so much in anger; and the person was still speaking shit; I thought my father will kill him. I stood behind my grandfather, afraid. Anyhow, my rest three uncles came, and he was thrown out of our land. We made a family enemy then.

That night while sleeping beside him, I told my father “I have never seen you fight.” He asked, “You think I shouldn’t have?”

“Naah… just haven’t seen that. You didn’t even fight with him when that biker rammed our just 12 day old car.”

“Probably because I considered that cause unimportant for a fight.”

It sounded silly…

It may probably be considered of no use to some people, but has a secret of being a little more happy and content in life. Anything happening around you, must affect you only when it affects those things of importance in your life, else it’s doesn’t matter.

Now, just start thinking of the five things u noted and see for a change.

Later…

Childhood ticklings...

Once when I was a little kid, mom gifted me a watch, the kuckdo-kun watch! I was told to keep it safe 'nhi to jholi wala baba le jaayega'.

In the night I kept it in the cupboard where we used to keep medicines;I went sleeping. I woke up next morning, got ready n went to school. School was good, me and my bench mate Surbhi, we used to talk about our marriage, kids and all. Well, I wanted to show her that watch, but I forgot it at home. I told her that I would show it to her the next day...

I went home and searched for my watch... It wasn’t there, I was afraid; because I didn’t want to make a bad impression in front of her. Also and majorly, I was petrified about telling mom that I couldn't find it. Well, mom came to know about it in few days and I was scolded. Surbhi said that she would share her watch with me. It was with thin strap n girly. I didn’t like the idea, but liked that she presented it.

After two-three years, when we were leaving New Tehri, I was packing my toys. In the remotest corner of my cupboard I found it- Dusty black, Showing 8:23 when it was 6 around... I called Surbhi to tell her, and then packed it.

We left for Firozabad next day. While unpacking, it was again nowhere seen.

Losing things and finding them where they were never expected to be found... It’s a good-good feeling. Mom told me that she found a watch in some of our belongings we left in one of our house in Bulandshar, while moving from New Tehri in 97 around.

However on a different thought, losing it and finding it somewhere unexpected… happens to love as well.